“So there it is. My little body has grown tired of battle and treatment is no longer helping. But what I see, what I know, what I have is Jesus. He has still given me breath, and with it I pray I would live well and fade well. By degrees doing both, living and dying, as I have moments left to live. I get to draw my people close, kiss them and tenderly speak love over their lives. I get to pray into eternity my hopes and fears for the moments of my loves. I get to laugh and cry and wonder over heaven. I do not feel like I have the courage for this journey, but I have Jesus, and he will provide it. He has given me so much to be grateful for, and that gratitude, that wondering over his love, will cover us all. And it will carry us, carry us in ways we cannot comprehend. It will be a new living and trusting for many in my community. Loving with a great big open hand to my story being the good story—even when it feels so broken.
Will you trust Jesus with us? Love us today by imagining how you can press deeper into love in the place you live. Give away what was never yours to keep. Love us by extending yourself in the corners of your world in a way that shines bright the light of the strength of Jesus and His unwavering love and grace. Love us by not meeting our story in pity, but pray that Jesus would tenderly meet us as we walk these new hard steps together as a community. Will you walk in grace with us to my last breath? Will you commit us to prayer? Will you trust Jesus that He knows the moments, He holds the moments, and He will take me away to the land of no more tears at exactly the right moment, and He will also shepherd and love my people after that last breath.”
I have nothing to add to those powerful words from a courageous sister in Christ who with great faith is walking the final steps of a fearsome journey. I only know that her words humble me, inspire me and challenge me to live each day with the grace, the courage and the faith that this woman is displaying. I pray for her, and I pray that I too can say as she wrote, “What I see, what I know, what I have is Jesus.”